It's only 1/4 of a cup...

but it was enough!! I made a roast in the crock pot yesterday and the recipe called for 1 cup of coffee. We don't have a coffee maker (long story, but it involves cockroaches) so I headed off to Starbucks to pick up a cup. It smelled SO good as the aroma of freshly brewed coffee filled up the car as I drove home. I came inside and used the cup and saw that there was about 1/4 of the coffee left. I didn't want to see it go to waste, so I drank it. Now I haven't had any caffeine for the past 2 years plus. I couldn't really feel any difference until I was at the gathering of the church and I shared something God revealed to me this past week. It was when everyone's eyes (about 15 of us) were looking at me that I realized I was shaking. There are only TWO times that I shake. The first is when I drink caffeine, the second is when I'm hungry. I also talk EXCESSIVELY when I have caffeine. I realized as I was speaking that I was beginning to get a little excited . . . I will not be drinking any amount of coffee (or caffeine) for awhile!!

going to sew

Aaah. Both kids went to bed like a dream tonight and I'm trying to NOT eat the night away. Last night I had 4 chocolate chip cookies after 10pm. I might have ONE sweet thing tonight but definitely before 10!

I am going to sew tonight. I'm taking an old dress of mine that I no longer wear and am going to make either a top or dress for Ellie (whatever I have enough fabric for. I'll post a picture of it once that's accomplished.

Of course the only way to actually accomplish something like that is to actually get off my computer SO . . . until THURSDAY I am signing off! The only time I'll be turning on my computer will be if I need to do anything with finances . . . otherwise I MUST be strong!

I don't like it

that's what Ellie says when she doesn't like the taste of something and I don't like the taste of time change. It really sneaks up on you and if you aren't prepared it really leaves a bad "taste" in your mouth. I wasn't prepared . . . otherwise I would have spent the last week moving the kids bedtimes up a bit. But not only wasn't I prepared but Miss Elizabeth decided that she wasn't going to sleep until 10 pm last night . . . I got her into bed by 10:30 (new time) tonight so hopefully it won't take too many days to get them both back on track!

I think I have a problem

I like to eat, and while that is not exactly a problem, snacking (and snacking and snacking) until I go to bed is becoming a problem. I realized a couple of weeks ago that it was because all day I take care of the two kiddos and hardly have a moment to myself. Then as soon as they are both down for the night I get to eat and actually enjoy what I am eating. I need to work on this because this is not a healthy habit to have.

On another note, Josiah is doing better w/ eating. He doesn't eat like Ellie did, but he is eating. The trick, I found, is feeding him about 30 minutes before I nurse him. That way he's good and hungry and will actually EAT. The last couple of days were a bit challenging w/ him refusing to eat, but this evening he enjoyed his pureed chicken and I threw in a few bites of peas in as well.

Blogging in my head

I wish I had time to blog about being a mom more. I actually have a running blog going on almost all day in my head. The only problem is I rarely have time to put the words in my head out onto the computer screen and so all that I have to say gets lost deep in the recesses of my brain never to come out again.

Maybe one day I'll make the time.

nap strike

I fear that my nap times have come to an end. We are on day 5 of Elizabeth's nap strike. This is the longest one yet. In the times before she would scream the whole time or not be content she is now perfectly content to read books in her crib with her stuffed animals for an hour! She's a bit of a brat in the evenings, hitting her brother and throwing tantrums more readily but she's starting to mellow out.

I am still getting my alone time, just can't count on a nap anymore - which means I should probably go to bed earlier!