long and frustrating day

Yesterday was a long and frustrating day. On Sunday evening I spoke w/ my doctor (who was on her way home from a trip up north) to tell her that I wanted to check on the baby before making any further decisions regarding inductions. She called me back letting me know that was fine but that she was leaving the country early Tuesday morning. WHAT the HECK. I was NOT very pleased w/ that because that was the first I had heard anything about her leaving - again, but what do you do?

SO . . . had an ultrasound yesterday and another NST. Everything came back normal w/ the baby doing fine. A little low on the amniotic fluid, but otherwise good. We went to the doctors office afterwards for an exam and I couldn't WAIT to get out of there. She kept going on & on about the "risks" and then asking me how I was doing . . . & did I have any questions. (We had told her already that we were going to wait and be seen by the other doctors she works with). I left frustrated with the whole situation and battling fear. Not a good place for an expectant mother to be in.

She left for almost a month this morning and I'm just glad to have her gone. She is a great labor & delivery doctor, but unfortunatley I won't ever have her as my OB again nor will I recommend her to anyone. Mainly because of the way she handled this situation. I feel like she used the "possibility" of something going wrong to try to get me to induce when it wasn't necessary. There was never any real reason for her to induce me this whole time, just "what ifs" and really for her own convienance because she was leaving and I didn't even know about that! I would have probably gone with a different doctor if I had known she was going to be gone only 10 days after my due date!

Today was a much better day. I went into the other doctors office (there are 3 who work out of that office) and met w/ the on-call doctor. His name was Dr. Murphy and he's been practicing for about 40 years. I prayed this morning that the Lord would bring about peace through my meeting with the doctor and that's exactly what happened. Dr. Murphy was so kind and didn't incite fear at all. When he was done answering our questions and giving us his opinion he sat back and just asked us what we would like to do. It was so different than the anxious driven conversation we had with my doctor. We already knew we wanted to give this baby until Friday . . . so we only made one litte adjustment. We are going in tomorrow at 4pm to start on the cervidil (which should help soften my cervix) overnight and then start the pitocin in the morning.

Saturday . . .

Saturday is almost gone and I'm ready for bed. Made Ellie a very cute little top today and cut out a cute dress for her as well. Have plans to make that tomorrow - as well as some shorts for her, finish a skirt for me and make myself a top - maybe two. I figure the more plans I make and the busier I am the faster all this waiting for baby will seem and the more likely for my plans to be interrupted!

We went to the beach today w/ my mom & sister (and Ellie too). I'm glad I went b/c either way I'd be waiting around for baby to come . . . at least we got to enjoy some cool weather - it's been HOT here!

still waiting :)

Thank you to all who've been praying . . . I decided early this morning that I was NOT going to go be induced today. I really felt like my doctor was just trying to do what was convenient for her in the guise of possible "problems" with the baby. I spoke w/ my mom and then called the labor and delivery at my hospital and spoke w/ a nurse there. Michelle was amazing and she answered all of my questions. I ended the conversation knowing that waiting until the 10 day mark (at least) was what I was going to do. I called my doctor to let her know and she just asked that I go in for an ultrasound and non-stress test. Baby came back with flying colors (big surprise) and the doctor's tune was changed from "we've got to get this baby out now" to "there is no reason why we can't wait until Monday". Yeah, that's what I suspected all along. I have a "tentative" appointment set for induction on Monday, but I'm going to connect with her on Sunday night (if I haven't had this baby by then) and decide at that point what I want to do.

I am hoping & praying baby comes by Sunday night and am SO excited to welcome him/her into this world and our lives!

baby's a comin'

Chris, Ellie & I went to the doctor's today. Ellie was able to hear the heart beat - she waved and blew kisses as she heard it. I'm 2 centimeters dilated but was spilling sugar into my urine again. I've had issues w/ that toward the end of this pregnancy. SO . . . doctor gave me the choice of going in today OR tomorrow evening to get started on pitocin. You can guess which I picked! If I don't go into labor on my own between now and tomorrow evening, I'll be going in tomorrow @ 6pm. It's kind of a disappointment (again) to possibly need pitocin so I'm just praying that I'll go into labor on my own between now & then. I have been having some contractions over the last few days so at least we are moving in the right direction. I couldn't feel a THING until after being induced for 12 hours on day 11 w/ Ellie!

As the old children's song goes, "He's got the whole world in His hands"

walking

Went on a 4 mile walk yesterday. . . 2 miles up to the mall & 2 miles back. It was good, but didn't make the baby come today. I went on a short 30 min walk this evening . . . went all by myself - something I rarely get to do. It was nice. I had a good cry too - that can actually be better than the walk itself.

the waiting game

Doctor's appointment went well today. My due date is tomorrow so if I don't go into labor over the weekend I get to go back on Monday for another appointment. My doctor has plans to be out of town June 18th for I don't know how long . . . & so I'm just praying that if baby doesn't come before Tuesday (I hope he/she does) that I won't feel "pressured" into an induction. If everything is fine . . . I'd like to go the full 2 weeks late - of course I'm praying the Lord will see fit to let me go into labor BEFORE we get to that place - and before my doctor is gone again!!

bored . . .

I'm bored, tired and ready for the baby to come. It's not that I don't have anything to do (my mom would always tell me she could find me stuff to do when I complained of boredom), it's just that I'm bored.

I'm sure I won't be bored any longer when the baby comes . . . new life seems to bring a lot of excitement, adventure and yet still a lot of tiredness - but at least there is no boredom!

uncomfortable

Think I finally hit that part of pregnancy where sleep is virtually an impossibility. At least continuous, night-time sleep! I'm ready for baby to come out so I can get some rest - oh wait, who am I kidding? Next comes the around-the-clock feedings! But at least I'll be able to sleep on my back, my belly and any other position I'd like again!

I'm going to get a snack for me and my baby - we're hungry!

baby's coming sometime THIS month!

Went to the doctor's today . . . we're making progress, but no baby yet! It seems like I'm moving along a bit quicker than I did w/ Ellie, so that's good news b/c this time I'm not being induced!

Elizabeth's been a bit sick . . . upper-respiratory junk. I'm hoping to see her better before I go into labor :)

3rd Trimester Woes

Restless Sleep
Heartburn
Potty Breaks
Swollen Feet
Late Night Cravings
BIG & Tired

Only 5 more weeks to go!

cravings

I just finished my absolute best treat (at least for right now).

Granny Smith Apple (cut into 8ths)
crunchy peanut butter
nutella

Put all on plate together and dip apples into both peanut butter and nutella.

AMAZING.

Now I'm going to bed.

Baby's growing!

Last night I was SO hungry . . . I felt like I just needed to keep munching and then the growing pains hit. This little baby must be having a growth spurt! I felt like I couldn't get comfortable all evening long and was feeling a shortness of breath even though I wasn't exerting myself at all!

We are talking to Ellie about the baby more. She can do the sign for baby and she responds very well when she is around and sees little babies. I know it will be quite an adjustment for her, but I feel like she is in a good place to be a big sister. A big sister @ 17 months! I was 7 years before I became a big sister!